Holding things in.

Venting

So everyone tells me that its not good for me to bottle up everything.. But how come when i get out what i need to, everyone complains about it???

First i want to say that I DO NOT regret my son at all, 
I do NOT regret getting married to my husband, but yeah i do 
wish that i would have went to college before i did any of it. 

I am glad that i didnt because i wouldnt be doing what i really want to, but i still wish  that i could have went to college. What person doesnt want to go to college? Doing something you love and having a career in something you love to do is better then having a boring job that you are not happy at. 

I am just so tired of having to watch what i say when it comes to my feelings. I cant help that when i think about my husband going to college even though he didnt finish because of some problems on the schools side, it still makes me upset because the fact that i would like to go to college. 

I really wish i could just delete my facebook and any other kind of social media i have because i just feel like even though i am about to be 22 years old in may, that i still have to act like i am a 12 year old, and i have to have my mommy and daddy watch what i put. 

"But if your son sees this," okay i understand that he can see it when hes older but thats where if i have good communication with him i tell him that i do not regret him at all, but it proves how much college is important to do. My hole point of that status was that after i graduated from high school i could have went to college but i decided that i was going to put it off because my mother kicked me out of her house so i was living with my boyfriend at the time husband now. If i wouldnt have gotten kicked out then i would have graduated and i would have went to college and then me and my husband would have gotten married and then we would have had our son. 

Am i not allowed to go to college just because i am a mom and wife? thats not fair, i understand that my husband works and i dont i am a stay at home mom, but i also do not have a car and i sit at home all the time and when my son is sleeping and the house is cleaned maybe i dont want to sit on my ass and watch tv when i could be going to college online. 

I love my husband to death dont get me wrong, but why should i get punished for wanting to follow my dream and get my degree in photography? I am 22 years old and most people in my age range are in college even ones that are parents and i feel like when the college that i am looking into ask me what kind of support system i have, well do you know how bad it makes me feel that i really do not have any kind of support system. I have maybe one person that is happy that i want to go to college. 

When i talk to jesse he doesnt understand where i am coming from and it just makes us fight, I cant put anything on facebook because everyone takes offense to it and says that i shouldnt regret my son or getting married when not once did any of those words come out of my mouth. 


I am sorry that this is so long, not that anyone reads this anyway, but this is my blog this is where i can get what i need to off my chest and if anyone does read this that i know that doesnt like anything on here i am sorry but this is the only place that i can say what i want. pretty sad huh. 



god some times i really hate my life. 

i love my son, i love my husband but i am not a little kid, people need to stop with the hole treating me like one. but if anyone does read this that i will get hate for it. but i am tired of not having a place just for me and my thoughts. if you dont like what i am saying then stop reading my blog. i already change my facebook for you and i will not change my blog for you. 

Influenster: Reese's Spread Review

Influenster VoxBox
#1 Reese's Spread.

This is my first VoxBox that I have received from Influenster. 

It's their reese's spreads box. Now I have to tell you 

I never knew that they made reese's into a spread,

But I am so glad they did. It tastes just like a reese cup, and 

that is one of my favorite candy. I love that it is a spreadable 

because my husband and me have sensitive teeth, And we 

cant really eat reese's but with it being a spreadable we

can just put it on a spoon and lick it. Which we have done, and its 

almost gone already so we are going to have to get more. I recommend

this to everyone that has a sweet tooth because this is 

the most amazing thing ever!!

Inside 

Each voxbox comes with one of these cards inside

which I personally love. The card has information 

about what is inside of your voxbox for you to be able 

to read and get to know about the product a little more. 

On other voxbox's like lets say make up, the card would 

tell you what one item is and then it would 

also tell you about how much that product would be 

so if you wanted to try it out you could and you could 

see that a lot of the products are affordable. This one however 

tells you the best kind of pairings to try the reese's spread 

with, As ideas on how to try it. 

               What I tried:

Now let me explain why I used it on a cake. 

Normal frosting hurts my teeth and my husbands as well 

but we love cake. So while my husband was out of town i decided 

i was going to make a cake and test it out to see how it would 

work or taste. Now I personally think that it worked amazing. 

The reese's spread was sweet but it also didn't 

hurt my teeth like normal frosting would. I thought it 

tasted amazing and I recommend others to try it too. 

I promise if you try this reese's spread you will not 

be disappointed. 

Also if you want a voxbox of your own, 

you can get one by going to 

Influenster.com and signing up. 

It's 100% free and all you have to do is when 

you get a voxbox is write a review about the 

product(s) and then take a short survey. 

I hope you try both of these out, 

and I hope you like them just as much 

as i have. 

Please note:
I have recieved the product complimentary to test and review,
 these are 100% my own opinions

Gone again..

Here we go again!!

Just as i was getting use to my husband being home, helping with our son, and being able to cuddle him every night, the phone rings. 

His boss calls and tells him he leaves for Oklahoma on Monday. 

I know this is the life, But it never gets easier. When ever hes gone i miss him so much. and it doesnt help that our son is a spitting image of him. 

As much as i hate it, I love it to because we have the money to make sure everything 

gets paid, but its hard because our son is so active and i just think of all the firsts that my husband is going to have to miss. Our son is so close to crawling and it makes me sad that his daddy might miss it. 

Of course he has an amazing boss but i dont think 

it will ever get easy, nor will i ever get use to it. 

but its our life. 

God Bless the Pipeliners Wife, 

the wifes that dont travel with our PL's 

well we have to be the strongest women 

I know.