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New video up! Sorry its a little late!! I promise I will get caught up !!! 

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The camera I use: Nikon D3200 

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Lighting I use: Opteka RL12 Digital Macro LED Ring Light

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Jr's first hair cut

Check out the new video that is up. My son got his very first hair cut. It was a very bittersweet moment because he is growing up so fast and i am not ready for it. i hope you guys enjoy this video as much as i enjoyed filming it. Hopefully i see you guys in my next video and blog. Until then stay beautiful

Wellness VoxBox

Influenster's Wellness VoxBox

I loved this months voxbox. It was filled with so much amazing stuff it wasn't even funny, But before i get into the samples i want to say that influenster sent me this voxbox to test out these samples and give my 100% my own opinions and reviews. So with that lets get started. 

The first thing that i noticed that they game me was the attitude shampoo. Now i am not one who really cares about what kind of shampoo i use as long as it smells good. This stuff not only smells good, but it has 100 percent worry free ingredients. I used the shampoo and i loved the results. I am telling you this stuff not only smells amazing but made my hair feel so freaking soft its not even funny. I will defiantly be getting more of this stuff. I think it is a must but. 

the second thing that i noticed i got was the jergens wet skin moisturizer. I personally loved this one because the pure fact that when i get out of the shower usually because i take such hot showers my skin is so dry and this stuff you put on before you dry off and it is amazing. Made my skin feel like it did when i was little, such as the smoothness. I think if you have a problem with dry skin this stuff works so freaking good and is defiantly a must have. i will be buying more of this stuff. 

the third thing that i noticed i got was the olay active botanicals refreshing gel cleanser. Now this stuff you put on in the morning and at night and it just basically refreshes your skin. I loved this because all the stress i have on a day to day i used this stuff for about a week now and i can already see that my skin is not only looking better but also it is so freaking soft. I will be buying more of this stuff because i use it more than anything now. 

I also got some mouth wash enamel health, and me i am very picky with the mouth wash i use because i don't like strong favors or scents. This not only was a good taste in my mouth but also it wasn't to strong to burn my nose. I have been using this for a week and it also had been showing improvement already and i have not been happier since then. I am one who doesn't like my teeth but since i have been using this stuff i don't mind smiling any more. 

the last two things i got was my urgent rx. this stuff was amazing because i was at the fair and i hurt my self some how, and so i just used it and I'm not even lying, my pain was gone. I could relax and have fun at the fair and not worry about my injury and then i also got some attitude dish washing soap. The dish washing soap has cleaned my dishes better then my dish washer. I don't think my dishes have ever been as shine as they are now. I love that you only need to put 2ml of the soap in water and it comes with 30ml so you can use it a lot. I will be defiantly getting more and i recommend all of these products. 

I also got some coupons for yaya which i haven't used yet but i plan on using it soon so watch out for my review about that one. I also got some coupons for the products that i got samples for which i will be using when i go buy some more of everything. 

This was my wellness voxbox review and i hope you guys enjoyed it. 

Remember this was 100% all my own opinions. 

Get Ready With Me (Simple Edition)

New Video Guys. I hope you check it out and Enjoy it. 

This is my Simple everyday look. 

I find that if i am not doing anything but chillin at home 

I like to put this look on just to be able to feel 

good about myself for the day. 

If you guys enjoy it please give it some love 

and thumbs it up!! 

Also please share it with your friends. 

Girly Gaming: Sims 4 Episode 2

New video is up guys 

I hope you enjoy it because i enjoyed making it. 

Don't forget to share and give it a big thumbs up(:

Book Review: The three year lie

Hey Guys!

So here is my very first book review. I hope you guys enjoy it. 

Amber Walter is an amazing person. I would like to think of her as a friend that i have made off of youtube, (i am probably just crazy lol) but she is not only on youtube, She is also A book writer of not only one book but two books. Her book "The Three Year Lie" Is also not banned anymore but when i made this video it was. I will leave below all of her social media that she is on if you haven't checked her out yet. 


But on to the written portion of the book review. 


In the book she talks about how she has come from this home where it was happy until her mom left, and her dad remarried. When her dad gets remarried he changes, and not for the better. 


She ends up basically living at her friends house who has a dad who happens to be a senator. They end up in this secret relationship and then they get busted causing him to change everything about her including her name, Age, social security number and  making her graduate school early. Now i know that you are thinking well how can someone change all that but let me tell you this guy was very much a powerful man. 


I think this is honestly a much needed read and if you don't already love Amber Walter you will love her more after reading this book. She also has another book called "Ingrids prison" I hope i spelled that right, and i intend to read that as well. This book literally made me want to jump through the book and give Amber a big hug for going through all this and still coming out shining. 


I hope you guys enjoyed the written and video book review. 

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Stay Beautiful 

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Girly Gaming: Sims 4 Episode 1

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I love you all 
stay beautiful. 

The Wet Brush Review.

I personally love this brush and i wanted to share what i thought with you guys. 
I hope you watch the video about it, As well i hope you like it. 

I love that this brush comes in many different shapes and styles for the many different kinds of hair there is. I would say that this brush is something that you could use for the rest of your life. I have been using the wet brush for i want to say going on four years now and i still would not trade it for the world. 

I love that the wet brush is a cheap brush, but the quality of the brush is amazing! 
So worth it. Most brushes that are cheap that say they work for detangling honestly does not work but this brush works. 

I also have noticed that the paddle wet brush is a little bit more but do not let that stop you because you get the wet brush you will have a brush for life. 

I have used both the normal circle bush and the paddle brush but i have also found that for my hair the paddle brush works the best. Make sure you know which style brush works better with your hair before ordering one. 

I also want to say that i am not getting paid for my opinion. 
Theses are 100 % my own opinions. 

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HGT

If you were wondering what HGT means well simple.

Honest god talk. 

Now since i was little i have believed in god and trust me i have been tested a lot. But as i am older i just wonder. If there really is a god, Why would he let half of the shit that happens in this bull shit world happen. 

P.s Ma if you are reading this i am sorry for the swear words but this is my place to vent. Not to be mean this is like my online journal. 

Any who if there really is a god, please someone answer me. 

Why would he let a scared little girl get raped by someone who is suppose to be a father figure to her? Why would he allow her baby brother be right next this rape to witness it, Knowing he would not be able to save her? 

Why would he let her date these abusive guys who literally could put her in the hospital if she didn't do and listen to every little thing that they tell her? 

Why would he let her stay in such a bad environment and be around things that no kid should she be around. 

Now i know that this little girl grew up with some loving family members, but the things she was stolen from she will never get back. 

She lost her innocence. The sad part is the lion king was her favorite movie, but now everytime she watchs it she just gets nightmares popping in her head of the man who was suppose to be her step father, the father of her brother on top of her and raping her. 

No child should ever have to go threw that. 

now everyone says that god would never give you things that you can not handle. 

But you know what i don't think that any GOD? should allow anyone to "Handle" Being raped. Its not right and its just wrong on so many levels. Im just curious about this. 

This child in question just is having such a hard time in believing in a man that should have saved her, but instead made her go through this thing that eats her up everyday now. 

She hates her self, She hates the way she looks, She let guys use her (in the past), No one should ever have to go through that 

and any god that would allow this, well i am sorry but i don't want to believe in something like that. and the hold virgin Mary gave birth to him, yeah i would like to know how that happened as well because last time i checked god nor jesus which makes no sense because they are the same person, but any who they were not alive when she got pregnant so please someone tell me how did she became pregnant. 

My theory 

Mary was a slut and she had sex with someone and back then it wasn't okay like it is now so she told everyone that she is a virgin and she just magically became pregnant. 

That is my rant, 

Bet you think differently of me, 

But all my points are valid 

well except my theory, but that is my opinion. 

My demons.

I haven't written in a long time. 

I didn't think I needed it. I think its time to actually share this, Just maybe. 

But I know some people won't like it. So if you are reading this know that I don't put real names, atleast I try not to but when I am typing and in deep thought i don't realize what i say. This is my place to vent and get things off of my chest. 

Why not just talk to someone, well the simple fact is that no one will ever know the kind of things that run through my head, the things that i have been with, and lastly the demons that i deal with on a day to day basis. 

But as i was starting this it seems that it has taken a total different road. So back to why i really wanted to blog today. 

I thought today was going to be really good, and it did. But like all things it must come to an end. 

My husband is playing call of duty: Black ops 2 and I am editing pictures that earlier I thought "OMG you are so beautiful, this should def go on Facebook, " But as i edit each and every one of those pictures my flaws haunt me. Most say i have no flaws and in your eyes i guess you could be right. But no one know just how much i actually hate my self. 

Sometimes i wonder why am i even around, and i look at my son. 

He needs his mom. I need to be strong for him, but that doesn't mean that i can secretly hate my self. there are so many things that i honestly hate about my self. 

the list includes:

1:The way i look in general

2: my tummy 

3: My eyes

4:My teeth

5:My smile

6: My odd shape hands 

7: My odd shape feet 

8: my nose 

i have so many demons and no one will ever understand them. 

When you are constantly told that you are ugly and you are fat, 

or there was a time where you were fat and you got bullied for it, Well that sticks and everyone just wants me to forget years and years and years or it. It doesn't work that way. Trust me I wish it would. 

Maybe if i actually had friends who liked me for me and not because i have a hot husband, or a handsome son maybe that would help me feel better. Maybe if i would have grown up like a normal person. If i didn't witness half of the things i did growing up, or maybe if i didn't get raped just maybe i would be this happy go lucky girl who has no worries. But sadly that is not the cards i was delt and no matter how much i wish i will never have that life. 

So the main thing i guess i can say is 

I suffer from depression, it is a disease! it doesn't just come and go. It is NOT the same as being sad. If i had a penny for overtime someone said "Oh you have depression, Well just smile and get happy" or something around those lines i swear i would be a millionaire. 

Holding things in.

Venting

So everyone tells me that its not good for me to bottle up everything.. But how come when i get out what i need to, everyone complains about it???

First i want to say that I DO NOT regret my son at all, 
I do NOT regret getting married to my husband, but yeah i do 
wish that i would have went to college before i did any of it. 

I am glad that i didnt because i wouldnt be doing what i really want to, but i still wish  that i could have went to college. What person doesnt want to go to college? Doing something you love and having a career in something you love to do is better then having a boring job that you are not happy at. 

I am just so tired of having to watch what i say when it comes to my feelings. I cant help that when i think about my husband going to college even though he didnt finish because of some problems on the schools side, it still makes me upset because the fact that i would like to go to college. 

I really wish i could just delete my facebook and any other kind of social media i have because i just feel like even though i am about to be 22 years old in may, that i still have to act like i am a 12 year old, and i have to have my mommy and daddy watch what i put. 

"But if your son sees this," okay i understand that he can see it when hes older but thats where if i have good communication with him i tell him that i do not regret him at all, but it proves how much college is important to do. My hole point of that status was that after i graduated from high school i could have went to college but i decided that i was going to put it off because my mother kicked me out of her house so i was living with my boyfriend at the time husband now. If i wouldnt have gotten kicked out then i would have graduated and i would have went to college and then me and my husband would have gotten married and then we would have had our son. 

Am i not allowed to go to college just because i am a mom and wife? thats not fair, i understand that my husband works and i dont i am a stay at home mom, but i also do not have a car and i sit at home all the time and when my son is sleeping and the house is cleaned maybe i dont want to sit on my ass and watch tv when i could be going to college online. 

I love my husband to death dont get me wrong, but why should i get punished for wanting to follow my dream and get my degree in photography? I am 22 years old and most people in my age range are in college even ones that are parents and i feel like when the college that i am looking into ask me what kind of support system i have, well do you know how bad it makes me feel that i really do not have any kind of support system. I have maybe one person that is happy that i want to go to college. 

When i talk to jesse he doesnt understand where i am coming from and it just makes us fight, I cant put anything on facebook because everyone takes offense to it and says that i shouldnt regret my son or getting married when not once did any of those words come out of my mouth. 


I am sorry that this is so long, not that anyone reads this anyway, but this is my blog this is where i can get what i need to off my chest and if anyone does read this that i know that doesnt like anything on here i am sorry but this is the only place that i can say what i want. pretty sad huh. 



god some times i really hate my life. 

i love my son, i love my husband but i am not a little kid, people need to stop with the hole treating me like one. but if anyone does read this that i will get hate for it. but i am tired of not having a place just for me and my thoughts. if you dont like what i am saying then stop reading my blog. i already change my facebook for you and i will not change my blog for you. 

Influenster: Reese's Spread Review

Influenster VoxBox
#1 Reese's Spread.

This is my first VoxBox that I have received from Influenster. 

It's their reese's spreads box. Now I have to tell you 

I never knew that they made reese's into a spread,

But I am so glad they did. It tastes just like a reese cup, and 

that is one of my favorite candy. I love that it is a spreadable 

because my husband and me have sensitive teeth, And we 

cant really eat reese's but with it being a spreadable we

can just put it on a spoon and lick it. Which we have done, and its 

almost gone already so we are going to have to get more. I recommend

this to everyone that has a sweet tooth because this is 

the most amazing thing ever!!

Inside 

Each voxbox comes with one of these cards inside

which I personally love. The card has information 

about what is inside of your voxbox for you to be able 

to read and get to know about the product a little more. 

On other voxbox's like lets say make up, the card would 

tell you what one item is and then it would 

also tell you about how much that product would be 

so if you wanted to try it out you could and you could 

see that a lot of the products are affordable. This one however 

tells you the best kind of pairings to try the reese's spread 

with, As ideas on how to try it. 

               What I tried:

Now let me explain why I used it on a cake. 

Normal frosting hurts my teeth and my husbands as well 

but we love cake. So while my husband was out of town i decided 

i was going to make a cake and test it out to see how it would 

work or taste. Now I personally think that it worked amazing. 

The reese's spread was sweet but it also didn't 

hurt my teeth like normal frosting would. I thought it 

tasted amazing and I recommend others to try it too. 

I promise if you try this reese's spread you will not 

be disappointed. 

Also if you want a voxbox of your own, 

you can get one by going to 

Influenster.com and signing up. 

It's 100% free and all you have to do is when 

you get a voxbox is write a review about the 

product(s) and then take a short survey. 

I hope you try both of these out, 

and I hope you like them just as much 

as i have. 

Please note:
I have recieved the product complimentary to test and review,
 these are 100% my own opinions

Gone again..

Here we go again!!

Just as i was getting use to my husband being home, helping with our son, and being able to cuddle him every night, the phone rings. 

His boss calls and tells him he leaves for Oklahoma on Monday. 

I know this is the life, But it never gets easier. When ever hes gone i miss him so much. and it doesnt help that our son is a spitting image of him. 

As much as i hate it, I love it to because we have the money to make sure everything 

gets paid, but its hard because our son is so active and i just think of all the firsts that my husband is going to have to miss. Our son is so close to crawling and it makes me sad that his daddy might miss it. 

Of course he has an amazing boss but i dont think 

it will ever get easy, nor will i ever get use to it. 

but its our life. 

God Bless the Pipeliners Wife, 

the wifes that dont travel with our PL's 

well we have to be the strongest women 

I know.